I get by with a little help from my friends
I have been on a running and blogging hiatus for the last week. Since writing last Tuesday after the race, I needed to stop running, thinking about running, thinking my marathon. It was a good break. I spent a wonderful, totally atypical day this past Saturday in my pajamas. That’s right, all day. I slept in, watched movies and took a nap. Pretty much the antithesis of the last 20 Saturdays.
I won’t lie; the sting from Monday is still here. I still don’t know what went wrong and why all my training flew out the window at the moment I needed it most. I’m sure I will continue to think about it for a while. I’m still disappointed and frustrated and the silver linings are not exactly shining in my face at the moment.
I sat down to write tonight not knowing exactly what was going to come out. Until a few minutes ago, I had not seen all the comments written in response to my last post. (I can’t believe 9 people even read my blog!) I’ve received a bunch of emails and Facebook messages. As if Jason and Molly were not great enough on race day, they’ve both checked in on me to see how I’ve been feeling this week. When asked the inevitable question “So how was the marathon?”, I have had friends interrupt my less-than-enthusiastic response with “She did great!”.
I’m touched. I shouldn’t be surprised because I know I have amazing friends and family. I’ve always been my toughest critic and I always will be. But it has been an incredible comfort to hear from so many friends who believe in me a bit more than I have believed in myself recently. While I don’t need a crappy marathon to know what great people surround me, it has felt really good to have them around the last few days. Thank you.
Well….at least you have a good job! i am kidding. Marathons are difficult. we put so much emphasis on one day that can be good or bad. I shot a picture of you on the bus, thinking so hard and critical at the moment. you were so focused that nothing disturbed you…sometimes when it matters the most it’s hard to crack, but when you put a little less emphasis on something it’s a little easier because you are relaxed…
ok…who am I kidding? I probably am the person who puts the most emphasis on my running…you know we are there for you to pick you up and make you smile. In the end, it’s just a marathon and you know you completed it and that’s what matters most. We have such high personal goals for ourselves and yes it matters to us deep down, but in the end, you know you gave it all you can give on that day and that’s what matters. Don’t look back, just look ahead. There are many other opportunities, you have done well…now have fun! and smile!
well now…just a thought… how you feel about giving NYC a rematch this Novemeber? You have inspired me to get serious about strength training..i could use someone to keep me on track …what do you think????
always fun running with you even if i cant keep up with your post marathon easy run ..:)
Great post, Chrissy, I hope you keep the blogging up now the marathon is over too!
you are welcome! Just keep reaching for those stars.Isn’t that what makes things exciting? and don’t forget to have some fun with it too!